Computers

Day 1

It was recently pointed out to me that I spend alot of my time with the computer or the tv and not alot of time with others.

Lets examine this...

I have always been a lonely only and before the technology was available I spent it with books.  I blieve that from a young age it manifested in me as agorphobia (http://www.healthline.com/adamcontent/agoraphobia?utm_medium=ask&utm_source=smart&utm_campaign=article&utm_term=Agoraphobia&ask_return=Agoraphobia)

And now as a rational adult I now have a name to attach to it.

As I got older and the technology developed I became more isolated and chose this path.

5 years ago we were transfered here and with no support or family around me the computer became my life-line.  As I reached out to others around me and met with dismal failure or worse the more and more I turned to the only thing that didn't judge, lecture, or leave me on a regular basis (don't get me wrong I love my DH and what he has chosen to do). 

I think I would have spent less time with the computer had it not been for this, and then I was introduced to FB! A way to spend a day doing really nothing, yet connecting to the world around me.  I know, I have power over it and can walk away but why? It's social networking and entertainment and  don't have to suffer through the day-to-day interactions with others.  The only downside is being unfriended and not knowing the reason why and I know Iam guilty for it as well.  Or seeing someone elses post and not being able to help them.  But I am fine in this world.  Stop judging me. 

By the time other individuals entered into my world I had already left them behind and moved on.  It takes 21-days to forge a new habit and after 4 years my reality has changed.

So that is my rant.  I may spend alot of time here but at least I'm not alone.  I don't want to be judged or controlled by the decisions you make about when I am welcome into your world.

So thought of the day is.... Can I spend less time on the computer and more time doing other activities? Reading perhaps. My choice.

Tomorrow I would like to examine relationships to food.

Namaste on this this journey and welcome.